Hi I’m a 20SMTHNG and I do not understand social cues. What is normal or right to say doesn’t pop up in my mind as something that is acceptable. What is abstract in understanding neither pops up in my head as unacceptable. My gague of what is “proper” much like my understanding of tone is when noises leave my noise box is non existent.
There has not been one time on this planet where I have sensored myself to the point where I would check myself on what I say. The only thing that has changed is my tact in saying such a thing, especially when it is important for that person to learn. For all intensive purposes ‘I’m blunt as Fuck’. To be blunt about it. Ask any person I have spoke to personally and they’d tell you the same.
It is not even that I am rude or insensitive or even trying to be mean but my thought for feeling of others may hurt them more than it will hurt me. Furthermore my tone in everyday life is more and more like brainiac than I’d like. Characters like brainiac & David from Prometheus & Grandpa Rick are who I relate to, imagine. Yes in all my principaled actions my personality gets in the way of all such things. As you can see I’m quite aware of this because my tactile thinking and interpretation of this quirk I have managed to get myself out of a few sticky situations and kept stoom. Reasons for being a lone wolf. Reasons for being so influential. Reason for being a critical thinker. Is because of this one thing.
Now the reason I state this is because in a creative pursuit you’re gonna have to have that individual to be like ‘nah‘ that doesn’t work or maybe this isn’t the right move or more controversially I don’t like this thing everyone likes or I see the beauty in this things faults. As we all know we live in a ‘micro-influencer‘ age where even I have many friends and aquatintances all think the same and follow the trends set out by generational/cultural- influencers Charlamange the God, Jaden Smith, A$AP Rocky, Pharrell & Kanye West as far as the hip hop and fashion cultures go as well as many more from many different fields. But when they specifically have something to say about something people listen, so rightly so as the cultural icons they are.
Here’s the thing though, I don’t have an ear for that or them. Nothing pulls me more than my absolute opinion on something regardless of anybody else’s critical acclaim. My thoughts are let’s test their mettle with my own and see what we get. I get the ‘you’re a dick’ line I’m only given by the most brazen of people and it’s hard to respect when you have no clout with me. But I do get it.
I would love to be normal and follow trends, but surely it goes against my honest taste as a human being, I don’t know whether I wrote this to test out a style of writing or to get someone to understand but it truly is fun to even read back