A wise man says I look for my acres of diamonds where I am. It’s so crazy I got everything figured out but I can never find out what real love is about. Do you think I sacrificed real life, for the dream that should be and not the one that is. You see the phase ‘young and dumb’ or ‘prodigal son’ is what could be used the state of my early 20 something life.
However it was the Not Your Typical one. You see I have been very retrospective the past months leading up to my 25th birthday. I would never have known this is what I would get when I decided to change my ways months before my 22nd or build my new future when I was right on track months before my 24th but here I am. I didn’t know it would take this long but I’m getting happier that I have done the things that I did.
If I were to explain any of my reasons now it would defeat the purpose of even doing what I have did but to document now the feelings that I have bore from the experience that I have had is something I feel I needed to do.
What I do know is that I created a narrative for myself that is like none other and the actions following this will dictate the fruit of my labour.
I’ve been told time and time again to look back to my years of when I was young and do what I did then of course this would he the comfortable option, this would be what is familiar to those that ‘love’ me; this would be what someone who doesn’t know how to grow out of their old self. To be the person I’m supposed to be there was some mental restructuring that needed to take place. To acquiesce, knowing the mind I had would have took me someplace for certain, the place I’m needed is where the questions lay. Those who understand destroying the old you to get to the new you will understand what I am talking about the most.
Lastly I can’t be sorry for what I have done the past six years. What’s done is done and the Dial points to true north, that being said regret is not in the vocabulary of progress.
Whatever Moves Your Dial,
This was written in the year of 2017