Kobe Bryant: Marathon of Inches – Most Elite Competition

Bless up from your feet to your head top

Sunday we lost Kobe.

I happened to be working, working on my podcast. Editing and creating assets. Not at my usual pace but I was making it happen, I got a text from my partner in the podcast with a one word text ‘Kobe’. I hadn’t the foggiest what he was talking about. I was thinking about bears then the beef, then Kolby Coventen all sorts. I did think the text was weird considering was talking about Kobe Bryant on the Podcast just the day before.

Main point is his text made no sense, I thought Kobe May have done another amazing feat, he has a production company I wanted to help build. After listening to him for some years and his last appearance on the knuckleheads podcast when he was talking about writing kids books on competition and being the best. I was like ‘yeah that’s dope I love that me and him will collaborate some day, he thinks just like me.’ Maybe my boy has a good Kobe topic after me telling him bout Mamba mentality on the Pod.

This was my mind before receiving a screenshot from the same friend about a helicopter crash. My immediate thought was he’s being rushed to hospital, ‘he’s obviously not dead it’s Kobe lol socials is bare dumb’ I thought to myself ‘this why I ain’t on twitter I’m working’. Reluctantly I open the app and the RIP’s ensue.

Good God what is happening today, everybody is annoying the whole world is annoying why are you people doing this. Then I realise for hours I hadn’t heard the news.

Me to me: you guys don’t know how annoying you are

You see I have a different relationship with Kobe. My older brother showed me the lakers when I was like 9 years old, we would watch highlights and he knew I loved basketball. After watching my first dunk competition I was hooked, a lil barely 4ft me. No one had the heart to tell me I would never make it but him. I loved basketball anyway was the one sport I felt just built for too just as well, it was more than the game it was the way Shaq Kobe and AI would speak about it. Before I knew what was going on I had an affinity for THE BEST TO HAVE EVER DONE IT.

Like I said my relationship with Kobe is different it wasn’t a Big Brother or Father complex thing. I had them both and didn’t need anymore, as far as I’m concerned my dad is the GOAT MALE, it goes him then every other man on this Earth, irreplaceable. I didn’t need anyone thinking they could run me either – already had a big brother for that.

You see having grown up the way I did Kobe and other men have a character I like. There are men who do certain things that I love that I needed to meet or work with, ones that died being Prince, MJ and Mohammad Ali, James Baldwin more of the best to have ever done it. More still with us being Dame Dash, Jay-Z, Andre Leon Talley, Honourable Minister Lewis Farrakhan, men that walk with distinction on this Earth.

Guys like Kobe who walk with my relentlessness, men like Nipsey who walked with poise among the forgotten of the world and Men like Jahseh XXXTENTACION, that knew how to speak to these teenagers who were really going through it and he would help them. These men did something so many others couldn’t and earned my respect in the most unconventional ways. I adored these men and one year after the next they were taken from this realm, my prayers go to their families.

Selfishly I needed them around. The work they were doing was so paramount, and the way they were doing it won’t be happening like that again. They thought in ways that I did about the world and had the character to do something about it. They lived with distinction and created a dominion on this Earth and in my heart that will never be forgotten.

I know their families needed them immensely but they had the families that knew their gifts belonged to the world. One by one assassination after assassination & accident they got taken.

Kobe was the type of character in my life that made me know the way I was thinking was okay. Being strong headed as long as you do great and can back it up, that was his way. He knew he could achieve greatness in the World by staying a student and continuing the Marathon of Inches. That mentality is one that I didn’t have to adopt because I lived with it. I never needed him to show me how to do it my boy moved in that way by default. Sometimes all one needs is permission to act in the way they know is right. Kobe and many others did that for me.

You see the way I see Kobe and Men like him is different and when you see me protect certain men or boost them in the future understand that I need them to be protected and know that they’re needed. I cannot do anything for those who have transitioned but I can continue to live in the image they left behind because I hold it too.

Forever grateful, forever thankful

Keep grinding and keep your neck up

A Dialogue On: Why I Cried at The Assassination of Nipsey Hussle — how it mentally entraps black men into a cycle of terror

I weep,

This event shook me to the core I can feel it I am not so emotionless that I can’t feel what has happened to me anymore. Some part of me wishes I was stone cold at the event that transpired 1am Monday morning.

No hurt

This is a feeling I can only compare to Murder of Trayvon Martin; the events of the past 44 hours strike me emotionally I feel the base of my heart reverberate and take me to the same place I was back then as a young man how helpless I was to do anything possible how my life in front of me disappeared and how I couldn’t think.

When I would go to the animation lab of my Cardiff University it would be hollow of emotion, I also couldn’t feel anything. I now feel, I can now cry and I can now give a passage of what this has done to me.

Grief

I am besides myself with grief with no tears to cry, my heart still weeps and my mind is trying to reject the idea that this is what’s going on, I can’t escape this feeling though; the feeling that I can get got at any time. Even deeper than Pain of Passion this is a feeling I grew up with one that tears black men up and one that can cripple a mans enthusiasm to help his community and to make something of himself.

This is the terrible feeling that black men face everyday the threat that our own success can kill us and even if we are noble righteous or just minding our own business living life that someone can take that from us in a moment. The motivation of our opposition doesn’t matter it’s the very real very pure fear and anxiety that someone can steal that from us.

Who will protect Black Men

I don’t even care for what people think about black males or the life some of us can possibly lead and the psychology of this isn’t one of those I can only say that I’m stressed. Beyond belief I am stressed, how much must we bend into a mould before we break; how long can we sustain this level of stoicism in the face of adversity before someone breaks us.

I have to relax, I have to be able to sleep properly, I have to be able to keep going. I cannot have other dictate the term to how I’m allowed to live my life and the cost is death, which was the reason I stopped crying, which was the reason I never feared death and welcomed it but times change I opened myself up — then XXXTENTACION gets murdered… Now Nipsey Hussle gets assassinated…

Why we put emotions away…

I feel the sorrow from my childhood that was the reason I never allowed myself to feel Trayvon’s death. I don’t know how much more I can take before the gates close again, I am up to the task of helping my community but this pain is a pain that overflows and overwhelms the most masculine types — at the rate they are taking out Black Men it’s only so long before the sorrow swallows a man. I can tell you now it won’t kill me first right now it hurts like hell, not just the death the feeling of helplessness that comes with it.

I say this with the most respect on the most literal terms. I was Trayvon, I died when he did. They shot me too. I AM NOW NIPSEY HUSSLE a man of the community trying to empower my people. That pain is my pain I carry this cross consciously & I am not trying to die on the inside again. I want to live and see OUR mission through to the end of my long and prosperous life.

… And our Spirit Dies

Why must black men who try to do good and speak truth to life leave this world as a martyr — Leave us alone. Every black man grows up wanting to help his mum or stop her from working or just earn so much money he can look after his own family with no problem. With the amount of obstacles we have to over come it becomes time for us to make a decision; That decision is made several times over before a man turns 25, that decision turns most men’s dream to dust.


Editors Note

One of my founding reasons I became a speaker was to communicate my individual experience and by proxy share the experiences of a group of people I hold dear. Just like with my Sickle Cell blogs I feel forced into a position to speak on this because men cry with no tears. Till you understand that you won’t understand us.

I will forever keep up the good example Nipsey set for us, I am not going to settle or quieten down; As long as I have breath I will always preach empowerment just like he does.

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A Dialogue On: The Yeezy democracy – Kanye West plan to diminish the exclusivity of his company

We go again,

Something amazing happened recently that not many bar the Yeezy community is talking about. Mainly because it’s probably the most positive thing an American hip-hop artist has done for Africa Bar Akon, giving to the people of the land effectively and wanting to REALLY help. The reason it’s not being talked about is because of Americas agenda to continually down Kanye and push the narrative he’s not fit to lead a community. Well that’s none of my business, my business is with what this means for Yeezy.

Kanye gave free Yeezy 350s to the children of Uganda it was an amazing feat, the recently released – Cream White Yeezy – was long coveted and waited on by the community. And they were given away for free! A mission of YZY is to clothe the homeless and help in disaster areas an all round charity company, when Kanye said it he meant it. I have no idea what the goal is in Uganda – although I will be watching closely – to me this was nothing but positive ; the community is having a field day with this on socials as the tension rises with these first class Americans sharing the sneakers with Africans. There discrimination is showing, what they thought was there’s to sell of and make a ‘profit’ or feed into some asinine notion of exclusivity got chomped away instantly.

Long ago with Zane Lowe a disgruntled Kanye spoke about the fashion industry and all his gripes, this led people to call him crazy and create the narrative that he is mentally unstable. This legendary rant did not fall on deaf ears though not at all, I heard him loud and clear he’s never wanted Yeezy to be exclusive in the slightest but with when you have a lack of control in how you’re goods can be consumed you must work for others to a point till you can feed something that’s true to yourself, with that – as soon as Kanye got his Billion dollar valuation he revealed his ever present plan and is giving back in an amazing way to the people of Uganda. I personally want to see how this grows into something more and hope it doesn’t end there, what I can see though is Yeezy becoming a staple item and not an exclusive one Kanye wants to get rid of it in hopes to destroy classism too. Having “fans” take a major hit, that’s nobody’s business because it was not his intention from the start.

I think this is amazing someone just doing what they set out to do. It’s motivational, it’s creative and it’s the artist way. Well done for now Ye, you win this round.

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