OYOS Acres Of Diamonds

You live in your acres of diamonds

The only reason I’ve ever done as good as I have is by this one thought and philosophical context. However it goes never search too far outside yourself as what you desire might be in a place most familiar. The type of thoughts that run through my mind when people say; ‘maybe I should move out my city.’ Or ‘you could make more money doing this’.

It has been a tale that has been told time and time again that I always have the skills I need at my disposal. I don’t know if I was born talented or super smart but I do know where my strengths lie. My words, my creativity, my vision. Something that uses anyone of those is where my acres of diamonds lay, I have created opportunity after opportunity for myself using/displaying less than 20% of my capabilities. I often think to myself what if I dedicated myself to one specific area how would I feel, where would I bee if I did that for years on end, however I still have it in my mind all my gifts are mine to use and to continue using because they are the gifts granted to me. It really humbles me when I find some people don’t have any or don’t know what their purpose is. It give me more drive to move towards my purpose and create more opportunities for myself so I can soon grant opportunities for others. That is my true work thing ‘work so hard at my jobs so I can create more jobs’ and anything That will allow me to do that I will.

Back to what you have even though It’s minimal you can always do something. I remember when I was dead broke literally no money and my computer broke, all I had was a Mickey Mouse pencil and a couple felt tip pens. This led me to start my fashion Illustration career which I still practice and commission to this day, even though I’m a photoshop guy I decided to use spare paper around the house to hone my manual skills. I remember being broke in university and the only thing I had in my cabinet was corned beef, I whipped that up into gourmet level meal … yeah I said it … GORMET! Remember having no new Ideas and being in-between jobs, all I had was a lawn mower I decided to go round to all my neighbour and ask if they need their grass cut, this particular hustle earned me thousands.

At my ropes end I find I am at my most ingenuous creating some sort of creative endeavour to pursue. Not just in the creative arts but in sales/ online advertising and project development. When you’re at your most scrappy and enthusiastic negativity finds itself out of your way allowing you to open another opportunity. I know for me and my awkward life I have been down roads that I didn’t think would lead me to money or any type of success. As a creative I do what I’m passionate about and the little I need finds its way to me, the will be a time when I find myself in surplus! I feel it in my spirit and theres no way I won’t allow it to happen so I move towards it everyday – Because I need to – I have to – theres no way I cannot.

Creating opportunities is what I do best, I will always want to because it feels right find your own acres of diamonds where you sit right now its definitely there it just needs a little digging and refining. Opportunity waits for no man however when you’re feeling noble and honest within yourself True opportunity was always yours to begin with. It was just waiting for you to grab it.

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Pain Of Passion

It’s so weird to talk on a subject such as this as it hits so close to home. We all know of John Lennon, Robin Williams & Basquiat Alexander McQueen. People that moved the culture forward like  Hemingway, Francis & Zelda Fitzgerald and Kanye West most know today who are plagued with demons that come in all shapes and sizes. We could honestly name 101 artists that have their own problems they are fighting here and there. Point being what is the cost of doing something you love.

I tell myself daily from pain comes to my best work, if I’m not in a state of comfort mostly mental that thing that drives me won’t be as strong as it should be to create a great story or concept. Now I do so much for the sake of my love of the sport it is simply a thrill to create something of great worth to me, then for other people to like and accept it is a beast of its own. But how much is this state of imminent peril worth, and with notoriety comes anticipation, the anticipation of people wanting more, Can he be better; Can he top his last work; Has he stagnated; Was she just a one hit wonder.

I now can only imagine the pressure to do well then compared to now. I think we can effectively say with art comes the recreational flavours of the World. All rappers can talk about is their use of Weed, Alcohol, Extasy & Drug addled orgies now how many of them are having fun or holding in some sort of pain that they are not ready to deal with. When it comes to my life there have been absurd amounts of Pain involved from a very young age and in dealing with many mental battles to just fight on, coming to peace having nothing to do with creating. Doing what I do brings me joy but there is that part of me that always wonders what will I create if I treated my life like Earnest did, Drinking and smoking at a typewriter trying to pull from the very depths of my imagination the best stories possible. Now, being a University student I have had my fun in that uncontrollable realm but I will reiterate it had nothing to do with creating it had more to do with the Celebration of a deadline or things of that nature.

What I want to know is what does it take to create great works, or what is considered “Great” sober, because all of whom I listen to and information I consume turns to the the former “With great works, comes great demon to be fought”. Ultimately Great pain follows because demons never leave they transmute. What’s that say to a Young Turk like me, yes I’ve got my own internal demons but the path to creating a great work is seemingly laid out?  You must control that demon with external forces in order to be able to create something substantial, as if that damn is always there playing on your mind uncontrolled you’ll never be able to get out the thing you want to say comfortably, in a digestible way for your audience. This is up for philosophical debate. What is your passion worth to you?

“I won’t underestimate who I am, capable of becoming.” – Benjamin Clementine

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That Which Would Kill Me

I’m feeling awful downtrodden at the moment as I have realised what was apparent to me before became a reality today. Just by understanding the laws I live by (The Principles of Man) or that which would kill me Pride. As good and as noble as I am, as much as I am a pacifist and do not live by the sword but by the pen. I fight my own battles in the field, this world we live in is not as noble as I would like it to be so I harden and grow callous to those negative behaviours and live by my rule humans are basically good.

But that is another blog, what I want to write about is the pride. As much as one can try as a Man can try pride plagues his spirit daily to fight the good fight to make one’s parents PROUD to make one’s family PROUD it’s a shame and not because pride can also save you but pride is what kills the man that sense of duty to one’s people. So who do I see as my people? The Creatives, the Artist, the colours & people of the world. It’s funny to say because I know no one will ever understand the sense of duty I fee to these 7 billion odd residence on our sapphire planet.

My sense of duty is what tugs on my ability to do things what creative answer I give my one motivation for even still being alive is to make the world a better place. It is funny again to me as I know of no one that will understand this more than the dead. See this burden I have no reservations in saying or preaching from a mountain top it is what led to the downfall of a business partnership because I see things they didn’t. Let me just say this, though I am not one of those creatives that feel their words or pictures on the screen will make the world a better place. What I do is a form of escapism it’s cathartic I understand this and feel to create the best fiction possible to allow residents to do this. Let’s get real I see nor has history given me an idea to believe that 1 singular artist body of work changed the world at large. Ruling out writings on the wall made by our ancestors I don’t see it. Unless my Art history is off then I’m sorry, please I would love for my perspective to be changed. Genuinely. I am not bashing what I love I just understand the 21st century we live in today needs a certain type of action, this is all.

Now, as far as duty goes I’ve told you before I have no idea whether I’m ready to risk going to university again. The scariest of proposals made to me, I hear it calling me. My sense of duty and more importantly pride in myself as a man was triggered, I’m not going to say how as that isn’t sauce of my mind I’m willing to let up yet however now it is a must I get that PhD I told myself I was so determined to get at 14. 10 years later I will go all the way, 6 years earlier than expected(I was to wait till I was 30 to reconvene(however I will triple major)) if only he could see it now, the straight path for me never existed did it.

I must stress this is not of my own volition this is all pride duty and a higher calling screaming at me to do so, something more powerful and more forceful than sheer human determination because I tell you now I see myself kicking and screaming internally to do the things that I have been called to do. Of my own volition, I’d be a laptop entrepreneur travel and make artworks on the side! Oh so selfish and oh so impossible, living for myself is my antithesis. I even think if, your immediate community of people you’d look out for at a drop of a dime, is less than 10 you’re not that great of a human being. You have your reasons I love you for it, doesn’t make your mentality better it. And maybe your mind and EQ doesn’t stretch that far (I won’t get into any studies but they exist) but I am built for this. That is what’s funny not many will understand, no one has asked this of me but here I am dealing with this thus ‘That Which Would Kill Me’. I am too prideful to let go of the World, I know I was built to make it better, therefore, I stand in solitude on this pursuit. I understand the death sentence I’ve given myself writing this, I exercise free will every day to make change a reality. Being a laptop Entrepreneur sure is fun but what will I do for the world really? Pray for me is all I ask.

 

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